With twenty-one (21) remaining days of the Abundantly EP Kickstarter, I can truly say I am completely content with the outcome. So far, the start of this fifty-two day journey has been a roller coaster ride! Some days I’ve been totally elated. Other days, I’ve been down in the dumps, lower than the dumps wondering WHY on earth I did this.
If anything, I believe God has used this Kickstarter to pull me out of my comfort zone. He’s shown me a few things about my personality and character. Without a doubt, I’ve seen that although we ‘say’ our expectations are in God, we so easily look to people for validation, miracles, and help in our time of need. God’s shown me He is that help. He is my validation. He provides the miracles. He is my comforter. People are only vessels, and they have free will to choose rather or not they will be that vessel.
I’ve had some great encouragement and discouragement throughout this process. I’ve had people tell me to find another way to get my music out; my goal was not obtainable in this economy. I’ve had people flat out tell me, “This is something I’d never be interested in”. I’ve had people I’ve contacted walk the other direction when they saw me coming haha, but none of this out ways the encouragement that’s been stirred up!
From the single mother to the college student to the dead beat dad and to the estranged friend. These people have been encouraged to follow the passion and reach their God-given potential. Their dreams have been stirred up! Their destiny is set in motion, because they’ve become apart of something this is certainly bigger than me and that’s bigger than themselves.
Relinquishing my desired outcome of this fundraiser has been the hardest thing I’ve had to do during this process. In all honesty, launching this Kickstarter was the last thing I wanted to do. I did NOT want to put myself out there, and I wanted nothing to do with potentially facing rejection. As time went on and with the ushering of the Holy Spirit, I realized not doing so would be disobedient. Once I committed to launching the Kickstarter, I was determined to reach the goal. I would take nothing other than reaching the goal as a sign of success; I was stubborn. As I began to see my might wasn’t strong enough and I had no control over the outcome, little by little I let go of my will.
I was reminded this Kickstarter wasn’t my project to begin with. It’s God’s. He will stir the hearts that need stirring. He will do what He sees fit. So I backed down to do only the things I was led to do. Now I have peace like I can’t explain. With twenty-one days left, I’m excited to see what God does in me and in others through HIS project. I’m also excited to see what my next assignment is … but I am in NO rush for that :)